Longingness 0509

  YOU(Imaginary/Fictional) **Note :-only one person needs to read this. If you know me . If we have so many things in common in real life . Then only read it . Otherwise please don’t proceed it’s not about you . It’s pretty boring and imaginary .  You (Imaginary) YES YOU ,,  When you delve deep into the sea of emotions that I m in you would realise  ITS  ABOUT YOU . .you see I m going through a range of emotions  .and the depth of sadness cannot be expressed in words .  I just wanna say can we go back to the times like when we were laughing on A for Aurangabad . The question of how it turned so drastically has been bothering me just too much. You see screen no. 9600 is what makes me happy. .  How luckless I can be wrt you , it baffles me so much so that I feel so sorry for my own self .  You see when I talk or write about you I talk in third person.  We were getting along so well I fail to understand each day what happened suddenly. Then...

  And then everyone stood up and clapped with one of my friend whispering into my ears” Wow     Prateek the whole public administration department is clapping for you “ It took me a while to fathom the significance of the situation. So back in 9th class in my school there was an essay competition on “Environment “ to be written in English language and I having come from Hindi Medium somehow managed to write the essay inadvertently and incoherently . And I was aghast when the news came out that my essay was selected as one of two top essays .  So a vast majority of students were taken to parade for raising    environment awareness and then to Public district administration department where top administrative officers were present . I was one of many student sitting in the big hall of the office .  After some important speeches by top officials and some functions later one officer went “So in essay competition top two essays have been chosen. One is...

  Have it ever occurred to you that something is not right with you     . Upon examining and asking your inner self ,it becomes evident that there is something that is bothering you . And when you delve deep into it ,that one thing becomes very clear . So you have been indulging in a conversation with someone    and things are going well for you with regard to your mental space and other things and quickly you realise they are not just someone . You realise how important they are and how much they mean to you.  And then boom! Out of the blue one tiny error and things go downhill from there onwards. You try to find solution and it seems after sometime that it’s done and things are back to normalcy now. Fast forward  That isn’t the case .  It’s not back to normal. You scratch your head . You wish to know the reason . You go “What did I do ?”Apart from one tiny and palpable reason ,which by itself shouldn’t bring what you are facing now.  So You...

Yearning  Isn’t it peculiar that sometimes we yearn for someone just way too much the same way that person yearned for someone else . You would say what’s peculiar about it . Well the peculiarity is that they still don’t wanna acknowledge our feelings .Despite them having gone through the same phase .  Shouldn’t it be obvious to them the blankness that has covered us.The darkness upon us . The sheer helplessness and utter agony that we go through. Having faced it first hand they ought to be a tad bit generous about it . One among many reasons may well be that they aren’t able to see anything that they should see. Other reasons being that they might be in cognisance of our situation but they choose to downplay it or downrightly ignore it . If that isn’t the case then may be they are themselves     not over their own self and still yearns for other person thus never bother about the 3rd person having the exact feeling or even more for them. Shouldn’t we should all try ...

Couple of months  And lambasting self already  A string of errors  And it’s all seemingly vanished into thin air Why so unfortunate in this regard Why it occurred  Why serendipity betrayed me ............................. But were humans ever impeccable?  Are no longer learning from circumstances in existence ? If no ,  Then why it all seems so silent Why it all seems to be but a stroke of nostalgia  And why it all seems to be a point where I cannot go again .................................... Revisiting the time you burst into laughter  When A for meant some bizarre yet hilarious thing When I soaked in lucid    wisdom of yours  Where you seeking satisfaction in everything you do was the mantra to live by All I am left with is    revisit them and continue to savour them. For how do I erase this incessant blankness  How do I know “Hope continues to be a thing” Come ,see this and don’t go away The helplessness is takin...