The Reason

 Have it ever occurred to you that something is not right with you  . Upon examining and asking your inner self ,it becomes evident that there is something that is bothering you . And when you delve deep into it ,that one thing becomes very clear .

So you have been indulging in a conversation with someone  and things are going well for you with regard to your mental space and other things and quickly you realise they are not just someone . You realise how important they are and how much they mean to you. 

And then boom! Out of the blue one tiny error and things go downhill from there onwards. You try to find solution and it seems after sometime that it’s done and things are back to normalcy now.

Fast forward 

That isn’t the case . 

It’s not back to normal.

You scratch your head . You wish to know the reason . You go “What did I do ?”Apart from one tiny and palpable reason ,which by itself shouldn’t bring what you are facing now. 

So You move heaven and earth  just to know what actually happened and try to interpret the situation but alas! 

To your utter dismay you just can not  find the reason . 

So why is it that someone who means so much to you ,who made you elated in many ways , and you try to bring smile to their face and do things carefully because in the back of your mind you don’t wanna hurt the person in any way whatsoever ,Why is it that suddenly the gulf  becomes apparent . 

Why are they no longer there for you 

. 

And to make matter a lot worse you just don’t have even slightest of idea as to Why ? 

The reason ?

A chance to undo things? 

A chance to right the wrong?

The mind goes relentless in seeking the answer . Gathering every bit of information stored in the memory . Drawing connections and trying to find the reason . But returning empty and getting caught in this conundrum. 

And the biggest and absolutely worst nightmare of it all is because seemingly the barrier is already drawn and they seem to place themselves far away. YOU JUST CANNOT ASK THE PERSON THE REASON. 

In a way that’s clear and direct. And you stand there ,somewhere , dejected ,trying to seek , at the very least THE REASON.